Out there in the black

[morsla]

Last night I was in bed by 1am, asleep around 1:45, and awake again at 2:30.

Three hours later, I gave up trying to get back to sleep, headed out to sit on the couch, and eventually passed out some time before 6am. I managed to grab a couple more hours of sleep, and also lost any chance of getting through a normal day's work.

It's not a good thing to find yourself thinking, "sleep would be great, but I'd settle for unconsciousness right now. What if I just held my carotid arteries until I passed out... I'm sure I'd relax my grip before anything fatal happened."

Here's hoping that sleep is easier to find tonight. I've been to the gym, eaten lots of healthy food, and have been dragging around the kind of weary that needs months to accumulate. I also have to move offices tomorrow, and would like to make a non-zombie impression on the people in my new building.

Comments

[sols-light.livejournal.com]

Sounds like you could almost do to go to the pharmacy and get something to make you go to sleep. I'm normally not in favour of drugs to push a body around like that, I hope you do get some good quality sleep tonight.

[psuedonym777.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Wishing you sleep and nice dreams dude.

[lena-supercat.livejournal.com]

I second this. If you don't want to use actual sleeping pills, the pharmacist should be able to recommend some really mild herbal sedatives that don't make you sleep, but just make it slightly easier to get to sleep, eg. valerian or similar.