I know there's an "off" button *somewhere*

I've just gotten out of bed, searching for a clock to tell me how many hours of non-sleep I've managed so far. The computer screen is telling me that out in the world, it's 5:11. This could be a bad thing...

I fell asleep for an hour, yesterday afternoon, after walking back home from the city. Literally "fell" asleep - I woke up to the sound of my phone, and discovered a bag of shopping that I'd been sleeping on. Tiredness is a strange beast - lurking in the background, pouncing when I least expect it. Sated, it leaves me here - alone, bored, and very, very awake.

If I have to be awake at this hour, I could at least be lost in the smoke and noise of a club somewhere - twisting and weaving my way through a dancefloor. I could be away hiking, up before dawn to climb up and see a new sunrise. I could be anywhere, doing anything, but instead I'm sitting here.

The novelty of skipping a night of sleep died years ago, when I started doing this as a routine to manage a workload from hell. My room is full of things that I *could* be doing, but embarking on any of them is a sign of defeat. I will not let insomnia win, this time... even if I have to lower my head and run at a wall. Somwhere, through the Infra Black (Good Omens reference, that probably far too few will get...) I will find my lost sleep, and grip it tightly unto the end.

I'll find ways of getting tired once the sun rises... ways to make my eyes stay closed even if my mind races on. I might walk to St Kilda, or practice some of my forms. Or both. Meihua Mantis and a few solid hours of walking should do wonders to tire me out - if that doesn't work, there's always that wall...

"...If you choose to pull the trigger
should your karma prove sincere
Do it somewhere far away from here..."