Where is my mind?
Sep. 1st, 2004 09:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morslaIt's the quiet I can hear;
my thoughts touching every second
that I spent, waiting for you.
Circumstances afford me
no second chance to tell you
how much I've missed you
my thoughts touching every second
that I spent, waiting for you.
Circumstances afford me
no second chance to tell you
how much I've missed you
Walking back to the hostel tonight, I stepped in a different state of mind. Dodging trucks on Northbourne Avenue, perspective inverted; my future stretched out into the history books, but I could not see my past.
My beloved do you know,
when the warm wind comes again
another year will start to pass.
when the warm wind comes again
another year will start to pass.
Searching for it, I slid sideways into an unmined expanse of memory; thoughts I forgot I could ever forget. I remembered sights I had never looked at, as hidden periphery swam into view.
Once I was free from the interruptions of traffic and travellers, I collapsed onto my bed - music from my headphones blocking out the now, while I focused on things that had been. As I lay prone, my thoughts accelerated - riding a reverie that carried them through the weeks and months, watching time flowing in all directions at once.
I don't know how long I lay there, but the music had long been silent when I sat up again. Time still flowed slowly as I sat and stretched, daydreams darting through waking thoughts far faster than I could follow them.
My beloved, do you know how many times I stared at clouds
thinking that I saw you there?
thinking that I saw you there?
I'm looking forward to coming home tomorrow. It's been a productive week - my mind/machine interface is stronger than ever, as I averaged a set of trace-element readings every two minutes for over eight hours today... but the mere thought of continuing at this pace makes my neurons shrivel and hide in the back of my skull.
More than anything, I miss seeing people. I'll be busy once I land in Melbourne again, but I will try to seek out as many of you as I can, when I can. You have been warned...
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Date: 2004-09-02 01:18 am (UTC)Well, I can fix you up with WarMachine on Friday and Exalted on Saturday, how does that sound?
I know not everyone buys the "gaming-as-socialising" thing, but it's fun, and more importantly gives *meaning* and *purpose* to the unrelenting consumption of snack food.
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Date: 2004-09-03 01:51 am (UTC)I'll be trying to spend the rest of the weekend swimming through my data - 1200MB of spreadsheets generated yesterday, and still counting. Somewhere out there lies an answer - I just have to track it down in enough time to write about it.
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Date: 2004-09-03 02:00 am (UTC)Damian seems pretty interested - Lon can't make it tonight, but will on subsequent weeks. I've posted on RPG.net, but I don't know how many Melburnians hang out there.
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Date: 2004-09-02 05:11 am (UTC):P
good luck babe! cant wait to see the end product :)
HUGS
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Date: 2004-09-03 01:49 am (UTC)I have appendices the size of the MCG - now I need to write the damn thesis to attach to the front of them...
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Date: 2004-09-03 06:55 am (UTC)it's been stolen too! someone took it from the library n hasnt returned it. classic! :)
good luck babe!
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Date: 2004-09-05 12:33 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-09-05 12:44 pm (UTC)Some day on the sooner side of "whenever," we should meet up. I havent seen you in ages... although, I haven't been around all that much myself.
I like your icon :)
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Date: 2004-09-05 01:03 pm (UTC)I imagine your diary is hell, so I won't bother asking when you're free. But buzz me if you see some time opening up that you want to fill.