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It's 2012. Actually, it's now well into 2012, but I've spent such a languid week that the realisation of arriving in a new year has taken a few days to make it from my synapses to my typing fingers, so I'm only just getting around to writing about it.

This is generally the time when I look back on the last year, decide that it would be a good idea to look forwards at some stage, and then the year starts up in earnest - and the forward planning never happens. At least, that's the way that things have gone in most of the last ten years, now that I can check up on that kind of thing.

It's time for a change of pace, though. I've been in much the same place in my life for a few years now: an odd kind of limbo, filled with enough to keep me happily distracted, but without any tangible sense of progress to anything. I could stay here forever without really doing anything, and that should be warning enough. It's time to start packing up and moving on.

Some things are good. I live in a great part of the city, surrounded by friends. In 2011 I travelled overseas and met people who are doing some fascinating work. I remembered how much I love cooking for friends, and how much I dislike being a hermit. There have been two major problems, though.

My PhD has become a huge part of my life, overshadowing everything else. That's understandable - if it didn't, I don't see how I could still do it. It's now been almost three years though, and it's time to get it finished. That will involve a lot of work over the next seven months. Some of that work involves writing the thesis, but I think the harder job will be breaking bad habits that I've taken ten years to refine: getting used to writing more, spending less time chasing up details, and letting other people read my work. That last one is particularly hard, but will be vital.

The other bugbear I've fought over the years is my health, which has caused problems since I began this journal. Two years ago I was very unfit and unhappy about it. In 2010 I joined a local gym, but it never really became part of a routine. It did get my confidence up though, and helped me return to Kung Fu in January 2011. I've been training ever since, and feel like I've returned home again.

Injuries, health problems and excuses have been disrupting my training for eight years. Last year, I beat the bastards, and got back to doing something that I love.

My PhD has only had three years to build up a backlog of jobs that need to be done by July. It's one hell of a pile of work, but it's time to finish it - I want to find out what comes next.

Date: 2012-01-05 12:32 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
You can do it!

Date: 2012-01-05 02:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
It will be really interesting to see where you go next :-) Good luck with the PhD! One of my plans for the next year is to start going to Shut Up and Write, once I'm no longer working on Fridays.

Date: 2012-01-06 12:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thanks :)

There are lots of writing groups now, so it isn't restricted to Fridays. Monday and Thursday mornings there are groups meeting in the B13 cafe (Emily Macpherson building - right on the corner of Victoria St and Russell St), plus the Friday group that's usually at Pearson 7 Murphy's.

Date: 2012-01-07 03:34 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I might go along to the Thursday morning one in January in that case, since I'm also still working Mondays.

Date: 2012-01-06 12:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
go ben! the worst thing i ever did was let work get in the way of exercise at the end of my phd, was so exhausted and had too many excuses. cant wait to have a drink with you when its all said and done. in the end, it will never be perfect but least u can let the reviewers sort out the last of the editing :P

bring on 2012, cant wait to see where you end up! xx

Date: 2012-01-08 11:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Keep going.

Make sure that your supervisors are some of the people who get to read your drafts. :-)

Please get it done. I want to see what comes next, too.


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