I must keep reminding myself of this...

I woke up bone-weary this morning, trying to work out what possible reason I could have for being so worn out. In those first few moments of consciousness I felt irritated at my recalcitrant muscles, unable to fathom why they weren't letting me jump out of bed. When I started to remember yesterday, however, I didn't feel quite so bad.

I walked for about 10-12km after work, to training and back. The class great - focussing on consolidating things we have learned already. As it was pointed out, we could probably be taught to do the whole form in a few days of solid training. Actually knowing it takes thousands of repetitions. Master Liu also touched on something that I've always liked about the chinese martial arts: adapting techniques, instead of following rigid instructions that may not suit the build or requirements of people using those arts now. Of course, there's little point rushing in and redesigning things the moment you "learn" them... understanding which parts are integral, and which can be changed, is an important part of the process.

After finishing the Wudan techniques, we'll be slowing right down - spending whole classes refining small components of the forms we've seen so far. It's something that I'm looking forward to - when I started, we spent most of our time building strong foundations for the styles. Lately, there have been a few people driving the class forward at top speed... we've seen more of the road ahead, but it feels like stealing knowledge instead of working for it. I'm overbalanced at the moment, lagging behind the information overload. Sure, I can perform any technique I've been shown recently, with a reasonable degree of success. It's not really mine, though. That will come next - spending ten times as long, on each tenth of what I've seen.

I also spent quite a few hours last night preparing items for the Scav Hunt (it's Prosh Week again at uni... no wickedness for the restful). I think I had about 600 points found/made by the time I crashed at about 2am. Unfortunately, it looks like things went to hell some time this morning, and the team has pulled out of the event. I hope everyone involved is okay.

I must keep reminding myself of this
I must keep reminding myself of this

If there was no reward to reap
no loving embrace to see me through
I certainly would have walked away
By now...

- Tool: The Patient