Stuck in a box
Sep. 14th, 2005 04:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morslaI think I'm missing a few days. If you see them anywhere, let me know where they went - last I knew, I was sitting on the side of my bed saying "I don't think I'll miss much work over this." Two days later, I'm finally back at work again.
Still no confirmation on a renewed contract at work. It's now 16 days (12 working days) until my contract expires, with the ominous letter indicating that this time I won't be able to keep on working (and keep on getting paid) until the paperwork catches up. Hey, I might have a holiday after all... come September 30th, I may need a holiday to recover from organising UniCon :-)
Besides a headful of 'flu, waking up at 2am and clogged sinuses of doom, some good has come of the past few days. Much talking has been done at home, and I'm happier about how (and where) life is going at the moment. I may still be stuck for ideas in the long term, but I think I can make the present a more comfortable place to be in. Sure, there are problems. Things may not be perfect. Those problems are just another challenge now, another factor to move around... not an obstruction that will stall things where they stand. I think I've stalled too often, lately. I'm glad that I've noticed it now, and that I can start to move again.
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aeliel and I are alike in many ways, at the moment. Our respective jobs are dragging both of us down - we're boxed in, drained of all energy to go further. Work isn't worth staying for any longer - staying only pins us down, and prevents us finding better things. There is no room left to move, and nothing left to learn - the challenge has died, and with it died the desire to keep on going. Who knows where we might end up next year? All I know is that it will be somewhere else, doing something new.
Just discovered that the "perfect" job (as far as requirements/experience required/experience gained) is actually already filled - it's been advertised purely as part of a legal obligation to do so. I've been advised to apply anyway, so the bloody-minded ones over here can kick up a fuss at the farce our employment system has turned into. As I have no reason to suspect that I'll be here more than another two weeks, I guess I can indulge the shit-stirrers for one parting joke...
Still no confirmation on a renewed contract at work. It's now 16 days (12 working days) until my contract expires, with the ominous letter indicating that this time I won't be able to keep on working (and keep on getting paid) until the paperwork catches up. Hey, I might have a holiday after all... come September 30th, I may need a holiday to recover from organising UniCon :-)
Besides a headful of 'flu, waking up at 2am and clogged sinuses of doom, some good has come of the past few days. Much talking has been done at home, and I'm happier about how (and where) life is going at the moment. I may still be stuck for ideas in the long term, but I think I can make the present a more comfortable place to be in. Sure, there are problems. Things may not be perfect. Those problems are just another challenge now, another factor to move around... not an obstruction that will stall things where they stand. I think I've stalled too often, lately. I'm glad that I've noticed it now, and that I can start to move again.
I think
aeliel and I are alike in many ways, at the moment. Our respective jobs are dragging both of us down - we're boxed in, drained of all energy to go further. Work isn't worth staying for any longer - staying only pins us down, and prevents us finding better things. There is no room left to move, and nothing left to learn - the challenge has died, and with it died the desire to keep on going. Who knows where we might end up next year? All I know is that it will be somewhere else, doing something new.Just discovered that the "perfect" job (as far as requirements/experience required/experience gained) is actually already filled - it's been advertised purely as part of a legal obligation to do so. I've been advised to apply anyway, so the bloody-minded ones over here can kick up a fuss at the farce our employment system has turned into. As I have no reason to suspect that I'll be here more than another two weeks, I guess I can indulge the shit-stirrers for one parting joke...
