(no subject)

[morsla]

What do you do when you're home sick, bored witless, and have a computer before you? It's the

The quiz of hugeness...

Your gender: Male
Straight/Gay/Bi: Straight, to most practical purposes
Single?: no
If so, do you want to be?:
Birthdate: September 12th, 1979. Older than some, younger than a few others...
Age you act: Apparently, older than I should. Must stop doing that, somehow.
Age your wish you were: I like the age I am.
Your height: About 170cm. Which means that I have freakishly long arms, or Da Vinci's ratios aren't all that good.
Eye color: Brown, but occasionally greenish in sunlight.
Happy with it?: Sure.
Hair color: Brown, with a reddish tinge. It's changed over the years, generally without artificial intervention. Guess the follicles get bored.
Happy with it?: Yup.
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: Mostly righty, but still ambidextrous for many things. I take a long time to make up my mind...
Your living arrangement: Renting with two others.
Whats your job?: Mad Scientist! And student.
Piercings: Nup.
Tattoos?: One day. If I get bored of my drawings before getting them inked, that just tells me to choose more carefully...
Obsessions?: All that I fill my life with.
Addictions?: No single thing that stands out above all else. See Obsessions, above...
Do you speak another language?: Not internationally recognised. I think I speak a little jilavre, though - enough to hold a conversation...
Have a favorite quote?: All too many of them. Mostly lyrics from favourite songs ;-)
Do you live in the moment?: Absolutely. Although I can dwell on the past.
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Yes. It takes an awful lot to get under my skin. Unfortunately, this is causing all sorts of problems...
Do you hate yourself?: Right this second? No.
Do you have any bad habits?: Plenty. Worrying too much about things, for a start.
What is the compliment you get from most people?: Hmmm. Most compliments are about things I've done, rather than directed at me personally. Mental blank.
What's your biggest fear?: Hurting people that I care about, and not getting a chance to make amends.
Can you sing?: On rare occasions, generally not in company.
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: Nope.
Are you a loner?: Absofrickinlutely. Batches of hectic socialising, and long, comfortable expanses of minimal contact.
What are your #1 priorities in your life?: Being happy with who and how I am, and helping my friends to do likewise.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Eventually. It would probably take a long time until we had the guts to approach each other, though.
Are you a daredevil?: *grins*
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: Hate.... my inability to act effectively when I'm not under pressure.
Are you passive or aggressive?: Generally, extremely passive. I take sudden, viciously aggressive action to remove obstacles to my passive life, though.
Do you have a journal?: Yes. One online, and numerous books.
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: Strength- Planning. Weakness- Never finishing things...
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: Stay active, instead of lapsing into complacent-mode once the immediate tasks are dealt with.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: I am reconciled with the things that make me who I am.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Act when others hesitate; watch when they act.
Do you think you are good looking?: Right at the moment? No. Being sick does wonders for your self-image.
Are you confident?: Yes.
What is the fictional character you are most like?: I haven't found one yet.

Do You...

Smoke?: No. I firetwirl, but tobacco stops me from breathing...
Do drugs?: Right at the moment, I'm on just about every legal substance in current deployment against influenza.
Read the newspaper?: Not often. I'd like to read it more often, though.
Pray?: Not to any specific powers.
Go to church?: No.
Sleep with stuffed animals?: No.
Take walks in the rain?: Hell yes. Preferably long ones.
Talk to people even though you hate them?: Yes. Although nobody still in my life has fallen far enough to be hated.
Drive?: No, although I probably should one day.
Like to drive fast?: Re-worded for bike riding - yes, preferably off road, and down a hill.

Would or Have You Ever?

Hurt yourself?: Yes. Bit of a general question, innit?
Deliberately?: Yes. Not in any rational state of mind, though.
Out of stupidity?: Often.
Been out of the country?: Twice. Bali (when very little) and China (last year).
Eaten something that made other people sick?: *grins* This has been a competitive event on some hiking trips. Yes, yes I have,
Done drugs?: Of 'that' kind? I don't feel any need for them, personally.
Gone skinny dipping?: Don't think so.
Had a medical emergency?: Lost 20kg while bed-ridden with pneumonia, but that came on too slowly to be an "emergency," I guess.
Had surgery?: Minor surgery. I metabolise anaesthetics too quickly.
Ran away from home?: Yes, but only to climb a tree. Discovered after many hours that I couldn't live up there forever.
Played strip poker?: Yes.
Gotten beaten up?: Not severely. I hit back a lot harder, now.
Beaten someone up?: Have only ever hit another person in retaliation.
Been picked on?: Sure. Not so much in recent years.
Been on stage?: Once.
Slept outdoors?: Yep :-)
Thought about suicide?: Yes. Quite meticulously planned, and made it most of the way through setting my affairs in order. In the past, now.
Pulled an all nighter?: Oh hell yes. Three nights of missed sleep is a record I don't want to repeat - almost 90 hours, minus 30-minute zone-out patches.
Gone one day without food?: Yes. Have gone for much longer, when sick.
Talked on the phone all night?: With gaps, yes.
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: Yes.
Slept all day?: Yes. Longer, in fact, when in recovery. See the All-nighter question above...
Killed someone?: Not that I'm aware of.
Made out with a stranger?: No. Although there can be a steep learning curve to jump that "stranger" barrier :-)
Had sex with a stranger?: No.
Thought you're going crazy?: Many times, over the years.
Been betrayed?: Yes.
Had a dream that came true?: Yes. Not for a few years, but minor details of the next day were often dreamed the night before.
Broken the law?: Yep. In a proveable fashion? No.
Met a famous person?: Yes. The problem starts when they think of themselves as one.
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: No. It has been deliberate, or not at all.
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: I don't swear such things. To be fair, I don't tell, either.
Stolen something?: Only in as flamboyant a manner possible, in the name of a joke.
Been on radio/tv?: No.
Been in a mosh-pit?: Yes! Much fun.
Had a nervous breakdown?: I'm too cautious to have everything able to break down. I've lost large chunks of myself for some time, though.
Bungee jumped?: No. Would like to BASE jump one day.
Had a dream that kept coming back?: A nightmare, when I was younger. I saw it for about ten years.

Beliefs

Believe in life on other planets?: Yup. Of course, "life" has a flexible definition...
Miracles?: Yes. Sometimes, the most cynical observer just can't find an explanation.
Astrology?: There are some accurate predictions. Most of them are cut-and-paste garbage, though.
Magic?: Yes.
God?: Not specifically.
Satan?: No.
Santa?: I refuse to answer that, in case a denial makes a Santa somewhere die.
Ghosts?: Not enough experience to decide. Yes until evidence sways me otherwise.
Luck?: Absolutely. Although it is possible to sway the odds.
Love at first sight?: No. Love grows over time. It's quite possible that the right people could meet by accident, though (that luck thing again).
Yin and yang (that good can't exist w/o bad)?: Actually, Yin and Yang have nothing to do with good and bad. But yes, for both definitions.
Witches?: Of course.
Easter bunny?: No...
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: Yes. I'm yet to see it in practice, but I think the possibility is there.
Do you wish on stars?: I save my wishes for when they really matter.

Deep Theological Questions

Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: No.
Do you think God has a gender?: No. Quite specifically, genderless.
Do you believe in organized religion?: No. Don't tell me how I should think.
Where do you think we go when we die?: Somewhere else...

Friends

Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: Of course.
Who is your best friend?: Hard to say.
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: Me.
Your favorite inside joke?: *grins* Mangoes!
Thing you're picked on most about?: Not taking care of myself.
Who's your longest known friend?: Probably Beth.
Shyest?:
Funniest?:
Closest?: jilavre
Weirdest?:
Smartest?:
Ditziest?:
Friends you miss being close to the most?: All the ones I don't see very often, these days.
Last person you talked to online?: Jil
Who do you talk to most online?: Jil
Who are you on the phone with most?: aeliel
Who listens to your problems?: The people I feel close enough to reveal them to. There aren't very many of you.
Who do you fight most with?: I don't fight regularly. People I have fought with I have either forgiven, or removed from my life.
Who's the nicest?: Isn't "nice" the word you use when you have no better compliment to give?
Who's the most outgoing?: virtual_munkee
Who's the best singer?: YK, when equipped with Moutai and a karaoke machine...
Who's on your shit-list?: The people I deliberately have nothing to do with any more.
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: Only once, when very single... but even then, not all that seriously.
Who's your second family?: Currently, aeliel ;-)
Who's the loudest friend?: Maybe tarleon, when he's in a loud mood...
Do you trust others easily?: Superficially. Beyond that, a definite no.
Who's house were you last at?: Other than my own, aeliel and delphaeus'
Name one person whose arms you feel safe in?: Aeliel.
Do your friends know you?: Very few of them.

Love and All That

Do you consider love a mistake?: No.
What do you find romantic?: Caring.
Turn-on?: Spending time with someone I love.
Turn-off?: Desperate and/or drunk strangers...
First kiss?: One summer while staying at the beach... *cue harp strings*
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or not?: Absolutely. If I don't know you, you're not getting that close.
Have you you ever wished it was more socially acceptable for for a girl to ask a guy out?: I've never found it a problem.
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: No. If I am attracted to someone, I am attracted to everything about them. Maybe it's rose-tinted glasses, but they still appeal just as much with the glasses off.
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: On occasion. Less often than the same sex, apparently :P
What is best about the opposite sex?: Ability to talk about things that lie beneath the surface. In general, guys are pretty hopeless at that.
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: I don't know any trait that covers the lot. There are always exceptions - especially to the question above.
What's the last present a significant other gave you? My flu-ridden head is hazy. I remember being given a hug, and deciding that it was a fine present.
Do you consider your significant other hot?: Absolutely :-)

Who Was the Last Person...

That you laughed at?: Aeliel, most likely. I haven't seen many people lately, though, from my quarantine.
That laughed at you?: Aeliel again.
Broke your heart?: It hasn't been completely broken, although there are plently of nicks and scratches.
To disappoint you?: Myself. I got sick, when determined not to.
To ask you out?: Damn it, I seem to have done all the asking lately. Maybe I should change the "socially acceptable" answer.
To make you cry?: Myself. I think about things too much.
To brighten up your day?: Aeliel. There is always room for my day to be brightened by this one :-)
That you thought about?: before this? See above, just that very moment...
You saw a movie with?: Haven't seen anything lately.
You talked to on the phone?: tarleon, about the Covenant concert.
You talked to through ICQ?: Jil.
You saw?: hespa (very briefly)
You lost?: I only lose them because I don't see them slipping away. If I knew the last one, they wouldn't be lost.

Right This Moment...

Are you going out?: Not for a while.
Will it be with your significant other?: Maybe.
Or some random person?: Probably alone, actually.
What are you wearing right now?: Jeans and a T-shirt that have been slept in. I hate being sick.
Body part you're touching right now?: My palms are on my legs (keyboard is sitting in my lap), Feet are together, too.
What are you worried about right now?: Finishing work for uni. It even follows me home.

Personal health stuff.

What book are you reading?: Not reading any one book. I'm reading bits of several.
What's on your mousepad?: IR mouse. My mouse is sitting on a pad of grid paper.
5 words to describe how you're feeling: Sick. Worried. Hazy. Restless. Sore.
Are you bored?: Oh yes. I've been at home for too long.
Of this?: Yep.
Are you tired?: A little.
Are you talking to anyone online?: Not at the moment.
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: No.
Are you lonely or content?: Both, in equal parts.
Are you listening to music?: Apocalyptica: Hope

Still sick, although I started eating proper food again last night, when I went out for dinner with my family. I'm over the sitting-at-home thing, though - if I was going to spend this long at home, I'd at least like to be able to do something productive. It's not happening, though.

It will be a busy fortnight, trying to get all this work out of the way. The Covenant show (and pre-concert night at Pnaut) has good timing, though - I'll really be in need of a night out (or two) to recover. Right now, I just want to be able to walk properly without my legs giving way beneath me. Fortunately, I have whittled really, really small nanobot disease-capturing craft out of a discarded bit of Dispirin foil, and have introduced them to my body via the skin pores on my left index finger. Even as I type, they will be constructing defensive lines out of old cell matter, and rallying the immune system for a final charge...