Winding down
Dec. 28th, 2003 03:14 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
morslaI'm impressed. Somehow, without consciously planning it, I have ended up with my longest proper holiday in quite a few years. Even better, I have a house to myself at the moment. Silence to fill with my music, and space to sit and think in. Sure, it won't last for long - but it's the eye in the storm, and I intend to enjoy it while it lasts :)
Looking back, I'm still a little surprised that the last year didn't kill me. I gave it a good shot, but apparently it's not my time just yet. Note to self: never, ever try to study two degrees, work three jobs, manage a martial arts club, train four days a week, and still have a life, again. It's one thing to burn a candle at both ends - it's something else entirely to dip it in petrol and throw it in a bonfire...
At least I know a little more about my limits, now. Doesn't change the stupidity of doing all that at once, mind you... but it makes me less likely to push that envelope any further. If I try multi-tasking anything else, I may find my brain leaking from my ears, so I'm cutting myself out of most of the extra responsibilities I've picked up over the years. With a sword, if need be ;)
Next year will be interesting - I think I'll see what I can do when I can actually focus a little more. It'll be a busy year, but I like being busy - it stops me from spending too long thinking about things that I can't do anything about. Guess I'll throw myself in head first - the only way out is through, as the song goes.
Christmas was good, this year. Through no fault of anyone else, I've never had much luck talking to relatives on the big day - unfortunate, as there can be an awful lot of relatives in my family. I went from being shy, to having nothing in common with the rellies, to having someone else with me to talk to - but this year, I had no such excuses. I may have spoken to more relatives last thursday than in the last decade, which is a bit odd.
I spent a couple of days at home, and came back to Melbourne again to get stuck into being lazy :) I'm not sure if it's possible to actively be lazy, but I intend to make no effort whatsoever to find that out. Instead, I'm sitting next to the balcony door, listening my way through a few more hours of music, and wondering where all the morning hours went...
For some reason, I sleep better when the sun is up these days. Despite getting home some time after 1:30, it was hours before I managed to get any sleep. After a brief stint at being awake, some time after sunrise, I settled down and got the first decent sleep in days... maybe I've unwittingly gone nocturnal again.
Had a good night last night, seeing RotK with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
tarleon and futurelegend. Tarleon's ticket-aquiring-Fu is strong indeed - he managed to get perfect seats at the Rivoli for the late screening, and after a three hour testing period, I can safely say that the Rivoli seats are film-epic-proof. Any other cinema in melbourne, and I probably wouldn't have been able to walk after sitting for that long... the film's very good, but also very long...
Right - time to venture outdoors, to see what's left of this "daylight" thing.
Looking back, I'm still a little surprised that the last year didn't kill me. I gave it a good shot, but apparently it's not my time just yet. Note to self: never, ever try to study two degrees, work three jobs, manage a martial arts club, train four days a week, and still have a life, again. It's one thing to burn a candle at both ends - it's something else entirely to dip it in petrol and throw it in a bonfire...
"...I'll be the one to protect you from
Your enemies and all your demons
I'll be the one to protect you from
A will to survive and a voice of reason..."
Your enemies and all your demons
I'll be the one to protect you from
A will to survive and a voice of reason..."
At least I know a little more about my limits, now. Doesn't change the stupidity of doing all that at once, mind you... but it makes me less likely to push that envelope any further. If I try multi-tasking anything else, I may find my brain leaking from my ears, so I'm cutting myself out of most of the extra responsibilities I've picked up over the years. With a sword, if need be ;)
Next year will be interesting - I think I'll see what I can do when I can actually focus a little more. It'll be a busy year, but I like being busy - it stops me from spending too long thinking about things that I can't do anything about. Guess I'll throw myself in head first - the only way out is through, as the song goes.
"...With my feet upon the ground I lose myself
between the sounds and open wide to suck it in
I feel it move across my skin
I'm reaching up and reaching out
I'm reaching for the random or what ever will bewilder me
whatever will bewilder me
And following our will and wind we may just go where no one's been
We'll ride the spiral to the end and may just go where no one's been..."
between the sounds and open wide to suck it in
I feel it move across my skin
I'm reaching up and reaching out
I'm reaching for the random or what ever will bewilder me
whatever will bewilder me
And following our will and wind we may just go where no one's been
We'll ride the spiral to the end and may just go where no one's been..."
Christmas was good, this year. Through no fault of anyone else, I've never had much luck talking to relatives on the big day - unfortunate, as there can be an awful lot of relatives in my family. I went from being shy, to having nothing in common with the rellies, to having someone else with me to talk to - but this year, I had no such excuses. I may have spoken to more relatives last thursday than in the last decade, which is a bit odd.
I spent a couple of days at home, and came back to Melbourne again to get stuck into being lazy :) I'm not sure if it's possible to actively be lazy, but I intend to make no effort whatsoever to find that out. Instead, I'm sitting next to the balcony door, listening my way through a few more hours of music, and wondering where all the morning hours went...
For some reason, I sleep better when the sun is up these days. Despite getting home some time after 1:30, it was hours before I managed to get any sleep. After a brief stint at being awake, some time after sunrise, I settled down and got the first decent sleep in days... maybe I've unwittingly gone nocturnal again.
"...I'll be the one to protect you from
Your enemies and your choices son
They're one in the same
I must isolate you
Isolate and save you from yourself..."
Your enemies and your choices son
They're one in the same
I must isolate you
Isolate and save you from yourself..."
Had a good night last night, seeing RotK with
tarleon and futurelegend. Tarleon's ticket-aquiring-Fu is strong indeed - he managed to get perfect seats at the Rivoli for the late screening, and after a three hour testing period, I can safely say that the Rivoli seats are film-epic-proof. Any other cinema in melbourne, and I probably wouldn't have been able to walk after sitting for that long... the film's very good, but also very long...Right - time to venture outdoors, to see what's left of this "daylight" thing.
